Good Reading

I have had a little more time each day to devote to reading... and almost all day every saturday and sunday.  I've been working on myself more than anything else.  Largely because that's the most important thing I can think of.  Become a better person, and look for work as an even more valuable person.  Still, it would be nice if business wasn't so much about profit, as it was about purpose.  If I had all I needed to live, I wouldn't do anything I didn't want to do.  They say that when you feel good, you smile.  When you feel bad, if you smile for awhile, you can begin to feel good.  So you can allow your feelings to change your actions, and you can allow your actions to change your feelings.  But does it work with lifestyles?  Can I live like I want to, and eventually I'll find I do indeed have all I ever needed, and wasted a lot of time with worry, stress, and anxiety about it all?  I believe so... after all, there's a growing number of people who have told such a story to others, and a growing amount of research on quantum physics to support the idea.

By the way, I'm looking at ketchup drops on my burger wrapper, and I can't help but notice a smiley face looking back.  Does it represent a connection between me and my environment?  Or just supernatural encouragement?

Falling Apart

My car died earlier.  I cut it off at the first sign of trouble, but it seemed to die even after I had the key in my hands, and away from the ignition keyhole.  It started up again about an hour or so later, after I checked the oil and coolant after it sat through a short rainshower.  But it is only one piece of my life that seems to be showing signs that everything is falling apart.  I try to focus on what I want in life, and let it happen, but I have to wonder if subconsciously, I'm causing the exact opposite of what I want.  Instead of abundance, in health and wealth, am I making myself poor and sick?

Even if I have my finger on the problem... with people all around me stressing over my 'negative income', and their stress and attitudes toward people without a job stressing me...

is it killing me?

Maybe it is, and maybe i'm just going through a real low point in my life that'll start to pick up sooner or later...

Either way, I'm not out of the picture yet.  Just like my car starting up again.  It may have been dead for an hour or so... but that doesn't mean this is the very end.

Here's to health and wealth... in body, mind, and spirit.

Click to Save the World

I've been introduced to a website, www.therainforestsite.com , and I am glad I was introduced. All you do is click, and caring organizations from around the world donate money to save a section of the rain forest and help indiginous tribes survive without turning rainforest into farmland... 

But there are other tabs on the site which allow you to click to fight hunger, illiteracy, and more! Click away... this is the age of miracles... and not just high tech ones like this!

Healing Energy

I've begun to study learning to send energy and recieve it so i can use it to heal people. Additionally, I plan to learn how to turn anything into a source of healing energy...

So wish me luck. And maybe send some support for me so I can focus on doing this, and not getting a 9-5 job sweeping floors... it's hard to meditate and send healing energy while sweeping a floor at the same time... the chances of running into things is higher too.

As for now, I have the time, and enough money to help me pay bills and eat until I am effective enough to make a living healing and helping others.

Choose Your Destiny

I remember those words on the top of the screen when I started to play a Mortal Kombat game once. Years ago. Of course, you choose between four options, from left to right increasing in difficulty. Hmm, how hard to I want things to be? For the most part, I want only a slight little tiny bit of a challenge, and a lot of fun. Which is why I'm working on the way I act and live in these days. There are millions of people out of work in these days, and yet literally thousands of people who are working desperately, in a situation where they are paid too little, and work far too hard. It is time to make a positive change on this. If there is no other way, then to simply pray, meditate, and connect with God to create the shift from this 'reality' to a different one, one we'd rather experience. Less work, more pay, and perhaps less worry and stress but more fun! Let's turn things around. Work for three or four hours a day, get plenty to eat/drink/wear, and enjoy the rest of the day! Have enough money for games, movies, music, pictures, power, water, gas, and high speed internet! Let's build cars to last centuries with almost no maintenance, and sell one to each customer in their lifetime. Let's build everything to last,last,last and be enjoyed by future generations who won't have to work eighty hours in a forty hour work week to enjoy it on their vacation, the day they lose their jobs and start looking for work. I'm looking for work, I'm filling out two applications at least today, but I'm also taking the time to meditate, to use the abilities we are born with to imagine and bring to life a brighter, better future for all of us. I can do it for hours today, or tomorrow, and every day until I get a job. Any one without a job can spend time seeking a better life for all of humankind. It isn't hard! Simply thinking about it and daydreaming about it can 'seep' intention into the universe and work quantum physics magic! My last job was horrible to me. Too much to do, and I had no inspiration to do it within only 8 hours. I needed regular breaks, constant food and drink, music to 'soothe' me... I was far from excited to be there most days. As much as I loved everyone I worked with, and as much as I need a source of income... that was the last time I want that to happen. I'm going to trust God to help me wait for the right job this time. I was in this position last year, and I think it has been a position I've lived in over and over again since I left the military. I can live for a few months looking for work. I want to really build my own business though. For that I'll need some more money though... but it'll work out, I know it will. Use your gifts, even those you don't know you have. Don't doubt them. Hang onto life with all the joy, hope, love, and faith you can. You may hit rock bottom, and bounce off as you realize you can fly.  

Go ahead, choose your destiny!

The Setup

Often, we find ourselves in situations which we didn't expect. Hopefully, most of these will be pleasant experiences. Hopefully, even if they aren't, you learn something important from it you can use for the rest of your life. I don't know much about sending/receiving energy, certainly not enough to do it really well constantly... but from me, to you, here's a bubble of energy, full of love, hope, and joy for you to absorb and enjoy. I hope and pray that it touches your heart, and soul, leaving you pleasantly changed. Too many people have spent their lives over the thousands of years fighting others for energy, when all we have to do, is learn to give it to people. If we give someone energy that builds them up, and then they build on it, and give energy to someone else, and that pattern repeats itself contagiously, it wouldn't be long before we could cover the planet with enormous amounts of loving energy... unleashing a miraculous effect healing and making our world better within seconds. If we did it every minute of the day... we could be looking at Heaven on Earth (in a manner of speaking) within a week, or less. Let's start practicing sending energy, and building up the energy we receive so we have enough to live on, and plenty to give away. (this would work with money too... if enough people gave it to others... until everyone had enough to live on, and we'd probably find that there would be plenty to give away too. Only question would become to who would we give it to if we all have enough? But let's solve that problem when we get to it...)

Will You Change It?

I have read ten or more books that tell me something that I can hardly believe sometimes. You see, most of the time, it would seem that I am simply a victim in life. Things happen to me, and my options are usually pretty limited. Still, in the areas of my life that are sometimes the most important to me, like gaming, miracles not only seem possible, they happen. Two examples are my two x-boxes. I have an older model, which I bought for $10. I also have a newer x-box 360, which I was given for free. The first, was a deal arranged by a good buddy of mine, from a friend of his, whose x-box no longer worked. I paid $10 for it, troubleshot it and decided to replace the disk drive. I was given a disk drive by a different friend who had one to spare when I asked about it. I swapped it for the one that wasn't working... and I had a x-box to play games on. Joy everlasting. Then the 360s came out, and I would literally go to sleep dreaming of getting to play games on my own 360. After awhile, I took the opportunity to go play with my old x-box in a LAN party at a friend's house. He gave me an older x-box 360 he had, so he could go buy a newer 360. Oh what a happy moment that was for me! But this goes to illustrate the miraculous ways that things happen sometimes. But it can happen all the time if we learn how to apply our minds.

So where am I going with this? Well, with what I've read, it has been stated that we live in a quantum virtual simulator to some extent. Our universe as we know it, is an illusion where wavelengths of energy appear 'solid' to us, or don't even appear at all. What is even more interesting, is we are not just users, but user-programmers. When we remember we are not just characters in the game, but also programmers capable of patching the game from inside to make it better, we are closer to understanding what we are fully capable of. This is going to be critical by 2012-2016 though. Something big is coming, something that could possibly end our lives on earth. Like a meteor, or even sooner, a nuclear world war. No, not that this is absolutely going to happen though. Not exactly. The absolute truth, is that these things Could happen. The Conditions will be ripe for world war, and a horrible meteor strike that could bring us to extinction. The conditions will be ripe... but we can weather the storm and make it through to the bright dawn that will follow. We can focus our minds upon that meteor and deflect it away from our planet, like we hit baseballs with a bat to send them away from the catcher's mitt. We can negotiate peace, and set our minds to working together, not against one another. But, we can't wait until after the world war starts. We can't wait until the meteor is in our atmosphere and falling faster than the sun sets. No, we need to start Now. Now is the time to start, now is the time to pray, to 'set our course'. Now is the time to tell heaven and earth we plan to remain here, on earth, living together, playing together, eating together, working together. Now is the time to remember that even as it has been said, 'as in heaven, so in earth' there is another way to say it. I believe the Good Lord put it, 'anything you shall loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven, and anything you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven'. So let's work together, whatever your religion, faith, skin tone, abilities, ideas, or anything else you might argue about with anyone. Let's put our minds, hearts, and souls together in one brilliant cry, one brilliant shout, and tell all the universe that the children of God have awaken into their inheritance, and the next 10,000 years are going to bring heaven and earth closer together, and hell will be long forgotten.

In the book I'm reading by Gregg Braden, called Fractal Time; he explains a code found in the Bible, the Bible Code, and the prophesy it containts for 2012. At first, there is the simple phrase, "Earth Annihilated". But for the same date, in the same area, the words 'darkness, gloom, comet' intersect. Then there is a different phrase, "It will be crumbled, driven out, I will tear it to pieces". Does this talk about the Earth itself... or is it a message of hope that the comet can be crumbled, driven out, and torn to pieces? Last but not least, is the phrase from which our greatest hope can come. A question from the author of this hidden code within the ancient Torah, the four word question, "Will you change it?"

Fractal Time is a work of masterpiece, bringing the fractal patterns of the natural world, to the conditions that seem to repeat themselves over and over again in our lives as we live through time. It shows that time itself follows the natural pattern of patterns within patterns... the fractal pattern.

So in 2012 the conditions for earth's annihilation will be present. We will be present. The question that hinges on our decisions to help one another, work together, and prevent the destruction of earth is the same one, will we change it?

I have an answer. Yes. The end of this world age will pass, and there will be tragedies, like the ones we have experienced since 1980, and will experience until 2016 and beyond... but my answer is yes... there will be people, cities, technology, and many other things we love and enjoy in the future. Still, I don't think I can do this alone. I am counting on you to agree with me and help me.

Lasertag and Quantum Physics

Ever wanted to be in two places at once? Or be able to teleport anywhere instantly? Here's a big question. If the quantum particles we are made of can, why can't we?

Perhaps the answer to that question is simple. Maybe we require more focus and concentration. Maybe we also require more energy. Both of which may be in part based on problems we have been facing for ten thousand years or something.

To put it in as simple a way as possible, our solar system orbits the galactic core, and we are as far from the galactic core as possible right now. We have taken centuries to get here, and we are slowly turning back around to race towards the galactic core again.

If you can think of how much energy there is coming off the sun, the 'core' of our solar system, and how to sustain life on earth we have to actually stay a certain distance from it, imagine how much more energy there is coming from the core of our galaxy. Now let's add a little more. As we orbit the sun, we get closer to it, and farther away. To some degree, and it may not be that noticable, the distance changes the relationship. Earth may get a little cooler, and then a little warmer. Or just a little more, energetic. But now imagine if the change in distance was between things much farther away, but one of them was so much more powerful. Just how much of a change would it make in our solar system if we get a light year or so closer to the galactic core? How much more energy would the sun have? How much more energy would Earth have? I know I won't live to find out, but to me the possibilities are exciting.

But until I find out I can do things I couldn't do before, I'm gonna have to wait to teleport from the house to work. Or play lasertag in two places at once. If I could be in two places at once though, I'd be my own best friend. I could play Halo with two controllers, against myself... but until then I'm looking for a buddy...

One more thing about our journey around the galactic core. We've been 'wandering into the darkness' for over 10,000 years, and we're beginning to head back into the light. Whatever you're going through, it is starting to get better. Chances are none of us alive today will live to see that golden age that will come thousands of years from now... but until then maybe we'll get to wait in heaven, and then come back to see how things have changed. I'm looking forward to it already!

Recreating the End of the World

How certain are we that life as we know it, humankind as we know it, is all going to end within a generation or two?

Well, if our governments, secret societies, and religious organizations are certain of it, should we be?  What if they are plotting the 'end of the world' but plan on it being more like a fake, they control it, and then poof, they run the 'new world' with all the people they miraculously 'save'.

Perhaps that's when the real trouble begins?  Maybe that's when the universe reminds them they don't have full control of every factor, every possible entity and force within the known and unknown universe?

But what if we have the power to make this go relatively smoothly for almost everyone?  I mean almost complete pain and suffering free for those who are innocently slaughtered for the evil will of others?

I guess another question might be, which side will you be on?  Will you stand with the billions who get murdered by governments and their 'faithful'?  Or with the governments, convincing yourself that the other people are 'the problem' holding back the wonderful future of the world and its much smaller population?

Another question to ask is this one, whose end of the world scenario will we all be a part of?  Or will some of it seem like something everyone expects, and other parts more like nothing we ever imagined?

Whatever happens, I plan to stick close to as many people that I care for, and want to help, as possible.  Especially my family, my wife, mom, and brother.  Those of us that live that long.  Although, I'd rather live a very long time, hundreds of years, and find out that in the end, the governments only tried to make it happen, but the people weren't going for it, and it didn't play out the way it was supposed to.  More like popped and then fizzled out in a pathetic excuse for an end of the world attempt, and the vast majority of people started building new civilizations and lives for themselves.  Everyone is allowed to dream.

D33P 8LU3

I'm ready to live the dream.

Literally. I've reached the point where I can accept that life is just another dream I'm sharing with the rest of this universe we 'live in'. More accurately we should say we 'live with' the universe. Either way, my part in this dream is in the end, controlled by myself. At least, some part of my being. Right now, I have trouble getting what I really want efficiently and weekly. Like wellbeing, health, healing for my eyes so I never wear glasses again. To me that would be the most uh, visible sign that my life has truly become my own, consciously. I don't want full control, not by a long shot. I like synchronicity, seemingly random happenstance. What I want is more control. I don't want to wield the full power of a being shaping all of reality to match it's every whim. I just want to have all the money I'll ever need for my family, and start helping others full time with living their dreams.

Back to the life is a dream part. Sometimes when we wander the dreamy worlds we wander through, there are times when we find ourselves in control of the story. We can change things for the better, to stop something bad from happening. Or just to enjoy the dream a little more. That is called lucid dreaming if I'm correct. If you can have a lucid dream where you can suddenly fly around town instead of having to walk everywhere, or teleport back and forth through every house you ever lived in, even if it no longer exists in the 'now' as we think of it, then we can do this in our 'waking reality'. This is just another dream, and if we can have lucid dreams in our 'sleep', then we can do the same thing while 'awake'.

This is why I want to begin the D33P 8LU3 Mission. D33P 8LU3, as already stated, will be my effort to help change the future for the best. What I want to do with D33P 8LU3 is these things:

Help others realize their dreams.

Set up a group of people who are geographically stationed throughout the world to promote peace, freedom, and brotherly love by helping them learn to meditate on peace as long as possible.

When I can, financially start a company that pays people by the hour to manifest peace in themselves, and through them, the rest of the world.


That's what I intend to accomplish with D33P 8LU3. At first I'll probably be looking to help people learn to meditate on feeling peace in themselves for free. Who wouldn't want to enjoy feeling peace within for hours a day? People who can do it for free are of course those who can start the D33P 8LU3 Mission immediately. But for those who struggle with everyday jobs which they don't want, but don't see a way out of, I hope that soon D33P 8LU3 will provide them with an answer. Learn to meditate for 8 hours, feeling peace within, then get hired to do it for a living. The hard part, and what may require some relocating people throughout the world, is building local groups within every city and town around the world, within each and every country, who can live the dream, and embark upon the D33P 8LU3 Mission. In a small village with a population of 400, only 2 people would be needed. To figure out how many people any city or town requires, knowing the population that lives there, you only need the square root of one percent of the population. One percent of 400 is 4, and 4 is 2 * 2, thus 2 is the square root of 4. If we can get even a rough guess to the population, we can both send in a D33P 8LU3 team to start working there, and train more than enough people to carry on the mission when the team leaves town. In a small village where our population is guessed at 409 for instance, we can round up to 410 for instance, one percent of the population is still basically 4 people, or we can round up to 5 people just to be safe, and the square root would still be two whole people, not quiet three, but D33P 8LU3 can train 3 people just to be safe. In the end, we'll train as many people as are willing, and are necessary to blanket each town and city in peace and joy. Personally, I'd like 24/7 coverage, but I'm only in control of myself, somewhat, and while I want to encourage and inspire people, and make their lives better, I know that some people would not want to be a part of such a society, and that some just want to do evil things. Hopefully they won't feel like doing anything evil in D33P 8LU3 areas, and will eventually congregate all on one little island somewhere (or maybe antarctica) where they'll destroy their civilization, or realize they're better off with the rest of us. The idea is not to stop things from happening necessarily, just help people feel like doing good, helping one another, sharing what they have, playing games together instead of alone in their apartment. Help people stress less about life, while doing a better job because they're happier about everything.

It sounds a lot like a silly euphoric utopian dream. But its a harmless wish until people take it seriously, and really feel it's already here. My biggest goal is to help us all wake up tomorrow and realize it truly is here, we've just been ignoring the possibility, or letting ourselves be taught something different. By the time I make my next blog, I'll have designed some D33P 8LU3 T-Shirts to help fund things. Hopefully I'll be able to find ways to start getting the shirts printed and shipped to people before they start placing orders!

Oh, my inspiration for today's blog, is namely the book "The Spontaneous Healing of Belief" by Gregg Braden. If you can, and want to start living the dream before you meet me in person, order the book online. Gregg has his own website. If you need more 'proof' that other people think this stuff is possible, look into "The Celestine Prophecy" by James Redfield. His ideas of how heavenly life on earth can be are very similar if I remember correctly.

I'm ready, today's the day, let the sun set on a D33P 8LU3 world. (or if you'd like, pick whatever color suits you)

A Passionate Plea

Life can be hard. Not only that, but we can often imagine it is as horrible as it can get. We also imagine that it will never get any better. Unfortunately, what we imagine often isn't always exactly what happens. But for our own sake, we should imagine that life can always get better, that there is always a brighter day coming tomorrow, and that we will continue to become wonderful people, a wonderful human race, and a wonderful planet. In the end though, we often despair of a strange loneliness we can not fully understand. I believe this loneliness is a longing to rejoin the rest of the universe and the full consciousness of all life around us. Here's the basic idea:
We are never alone. Never. We should never feel alone.
Every quark, every photon of light, every atom, molecule, and inanimate object is full of consciousness. However minute, however different it is from ours, life is energy and consciousness and everything is made of energy and consciousness. Therefore everything is full of life! What often escapes us, and perhaps what we have as a race of people forgotten, is how to interact with all this life around us. Not only is there the life within what we see, like cars, computers, desks, trees and etcetra, but also in what we don't see. There are countless realms of consciousness and energy that can all overlap invisible, and all of it is open to us, if we are open to it. The question is how to open up to all of these realms, how to communicate with the consciousness and energy that flows through our 'inanimate' objects and through the ones that are 'animate' but whose languages we don't understand at all.
Here's my passionate plea. To every broken and battered soul and heart, don't give up. Don't stop living, every time you consider it, remind yourself that you are surrounded by invisible help. Here's the next part. Start learning. Search the world for every piece of the puzzle you can find. Learn to communicate with this invisible help. Learn to listen and talk to anything you can, learn to see anything you can, feel and smell anything there is to feel and smell. It will be worth it. Last but not least, reach out to others for help. If you want, send me a letter, or a small postcard, here's my p.o. box:
StatisticBox 71Laurel Hill, FL 32567
It may take a while for me to reply, especially if I get swamped with letters... but part of the reason I give you a p. o. box is because I promise to write you back, and there's something for you to wait for that much longer. By the time I reply, you may find far more help than I could offer with a few more friendly words...
Don't give up. Send a letter, read a book, search all of heaven and earth for ways to contact those who can help you both seen and unseen, and those you can help, they are out there, and they need you too.

Darkest night, Brightest Day

I'm considering shorter blogs on eternal hope. But I might get chatty. Every little step I take lately seems to be filled with thousands of little things. Most of them seem designed to test me. Make me mad, angry, resentful for having to go through this swampy time of life. Many seem designed to push my nerve, to see just how determined I am to keep going, to gain and lose everything time and again for the sake of learning something valuable in the end. I admit, there are times when I just want to lay in bed all day, and wish for the house to explode. I am working on building a hedge of protection around me, a shimmering glow of magical energy that will turn all things to golden hope when I look at them, when I persevere through whatever life hurls at me. So I come to this thought today.

The darkest night will test us more than any other night, but will often be followed by the brightest day we have yet lived.

I'm not going to say that this is always the case, but indeed, when you are left in utter darkness long enough, even the ordinary light seems brilliant. Which in the end, means that maybe our darkest nights are not always the darkest night that anyone will have to go through, just the darkest night we know of, or dare imagine. Our perspective counts for a lot. I've picked up a neat book, Norman Vincent Peale's Treasury of Joy and Enthusiasm. It's full of quotes and comments on joy, and enthusiasm, and how much living a life full of joy and enthusiasm helps those around you live lives of joy and enthusiasm. Even at the worst time in my life, I don't just pretend to put on a fake smile, I try to smile like the people I smile toward are worth smiling about. It may not make a difference to them, but I think it helps pull me out of my bad moods.

I've learned that life is probably going to be full of challenges, and countless moments of unspeakable troubles. But it allows us to show that we are children of God. Capable of using all the energy we can draw to ourselves to overcome any obstacle, any problem. Capable of changing our minds, then changing the world around us forever. Maybe the darkest night will be the one when you learn to shine, and the next day will dawn to find you rising triumphantly over the horizon casting light and hope to all who look in your direction, and blinding them with the brilliance of your soul.

Every Penny Counts

You are probably aware that one dollar is a hundred pennies. Ever imagined how many pennies that actually is? Or seen it? Now imagine ten dollars. That would be a thousand pennies. Whoa. But wait, a hundred dollars is ten thousand pennies. Where would you store ten thousand pennies? I think that would be enough to fill a small closet or something. A thousand dollars though, is a million pennies. A million pennies. Imagine, if you saved a penny every second, you would have sixty every minute, every hour you would save three thousand and six hundred pennies. By the end of one day, you would have saved 86,400 pennies. That is eight hundred and sixty four dollars you saved in one day. In 365 days, a.k.a. one year, you would have saved 315, 360 dollars. In just three years you have 946, 080 dollars in the bank, and should be able to live off a 1% interest dividend every three months. After all, that breaks down to a monthly dividend of 3,153 dollars, and sixty cents. That's twice what I ever made in the military. But what's the point of talking about saving 864 dollars each day, when most of us don't make that much in a month? Because it can be a reminder that each and every penny we drop onto the sidewalk, is another piece of your future retirement. Just think about how many pennies people let fall to the ground. "Oh it is just a penny, no real loss" they think. But if you drop a penny every second, it adds up to 864 dollars you 'dropped' in one day. Nobody would drop that many pennies in one day, I hope, it would be hard to have that many in your pocket to begin with, but the point is the same. You don't have to toss your change to the ground hoping it'll be found by those who need it. You can save it up until you can give it away in such large amounts that it changes lives overnight. Sometimes change is good, especially if provided in large amounts. Sometimes it is good for change to slowly build up until it is no longer needed and can slowly be used up. By the way, I'm not just talking about pennies or quarters when I mention change. Changes in our lives is a lot like the change in our pockets. We can use a few cents a day to change a life slowly, or save it up and pay for a book that will change someone's life overnight. There are so many ways to help others, whether with small change from our pockets, or just a change in our hearts. People can be compared to pennies. One person can change someone else's life, but may not be able to change the world instantly. Instead sometimes change will happen one person after another, like small donations over months that add up until the organization you donate to has enough to keep saving lives for another twelve months. Sometimes whole communities, whole nations will change drastically, within weeks or months, so suddenly the rest of the planet is shaken and has to adjust, or change, over years afterwards. Like a big donation that pays for hundreds of books sent into a foreign country to inspire hope and goodwill in people lost in despair and loneliness.

In the end, save your pennies, or give them to someone else who you know can use them to help others, or send them to me! But don't forget to accept the way your life can change for the better, and the ways you can change lives all around you. Even the smallest stone knocked loose can start an avalanche.

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My wife has a quote she loves. We have summed a bible verse, which one I'm not sure anymore, into a phrase we use around here, "steady plodding". I could describe it as basically putting one foot in front of the other, long after you thought about quitting, trusting that sooner or later you'll see that you have, indeed, made progress even though at the moment, and perhaps for many moments before, you felt like you were simply walking in circles. Of course, if you finally realized that you had been walking in circles, the realization itself could serve as the progress you have indeed managed to make, and would prepare you to do something else, say, walk in a square...

Anyways, I've had this site since February (ironically, since before I got my job at a certain gas station I quit working at once before). Now I'm poised to work at a gas station, and take classes in college working on my computer engineering degree. It's been nearly half a year, or perhaps it has been half a year since I've been leaving little 'encouraging' thoughts online here, and finally, today, I got online to find that my work has indeed left an impression upon, well, at least two people. That's wonderful news! I think my wife would agree that indeed, though for half a year or so it would have appeared that even though I mentioned this site to different people here and there, nobody saw it, or indeed, had nothing special to say about it to the creator. I'm one of those people who if I see something I like, I want to tell the people who had a hand in making it happen, or building it, or whatever. I wish I had a bank account large enough I could reward people I think are doing a good job. Perhaps in the future. Speaking of which, it is long overdue for me to get another set of Golden Fuzion coins to share with the world locally.

Steady plodding makes me think of the very first post I made. Never Give Up. Sometimes even when we see nothing happening, it doesn't mean we are not getting something done, it just means that perhaps the effects are too small to notice at first, and that given enough time, we just might see a little magic. That should encourage us to keep plodding, and look forward to seeing even more magic later! I hope all of your ventures will grow great and mighty, and that your life will become more and more what you hope and dream it will be.

Where do you draw the line?

Where do you draw the line? I'm sure you have done something that you wish you had not, something you probably still do. Something that if only you had never started, you could imagine that even now you would not have begun to do it. But now you are stuck. You try and try and try to quit but find yourself finding one reason after another to do it again. You should have drawn the line back then, you should have told yourself that you simply would not, and could not cross that line, and that was the end of it. It would have been. Once you thought about drawing a line, then decided to cross your invisible line, you were set down a path you would struggle to find a way off of for your lifetime.
But how many others are there who have so many other lines they have yet to cross? Where do you draw the line? Where do you stop crossing lines that you never crossed before? When does your desire to do something or another take a back seat to what you know you will regret forever?
If you ever come across an invisible line, one you haven't crossed yet, or maybe even drawn across the sand yet, do yourself a favor. Learn this one lesson before you pay the tuition for the rest of your life. Don't cross it. Choose to never cross it. Not even once, not for a second. Because there is no taking it back. There is no way to ever go back and know for sure that you didn't cross the line once, not once. Not unless you never crossed it that first time.
This alone could be one of the greatest lessons in life.

Last night someone ruined my expectations of them. My respect, my ideals about their honor, their worth as a human. They ruined it pretty well. They ruined it for two beers. And five dollars. They lied, and cheated, and stole from me for five dollars and two beers. This will be recorded within the consciousness of all humankind and all beings greater than us who watch us daily. It will be forever known that this person treated another person as worthless, or at least, as worth less than two beers, and five dollars. Would you want to be the person who did that? Or the person who was treated like that? In the end, when all the universe knows about this, will it be worth those two beers, and five dollars to have disrespected a fellow being of this universe? Will it be worth it? But what are the odds he crossed this line long ago? Will he stop at two beers and five dollars? Or is this just the beginning? If he lied and cheated and stole for five dollars and two beers, what next? Will he rape? Will he kill for five dollars and two beers? Where and when will it end? Where will he draw the line? Or is it already too late, already over? Obviously two beers and five dollars are not enough for me to lie, cheat and steal for. No, I'd have to lie, cheat, and steal for much, much more. If I'm going to lie, cheat and steal, its for the big money. Like a thousand trillion dollars. But how many people will I lie to? How many people will I cheat? How many people will I steal from? In the end, everyone I meet, and most importantly my first victim, myself.

Power Converters

If you look hard enough, you can find information to confirm just about anything... whether or not it is actually true may be one of those finer mysteries to life we'll have to wait until life continues somewhere else though.

Still, all in all, I've found to my delight that some of my 'cute ideas' I have tried to share with my wife may have more fact in them, than fiction.

Namely this idea, that you can transform your energy body (the whole thing, which I tend to call a soul, made up of the astral, causal, physical, emotional, and whatever other 'bodies' we have and are) into a 'power converter' of sorts.

What does that mean? It means you can train yourself a little every day to develop your soul to absorb any and all energy, converting it to 'positive energy' or energy you can use to uplift and refresh yourself and others. Instead of seeking out people who you enjoy being around because they seem to have a very 'positive' effect on you, you can turn into one of these people.

Earlier tonight I found a website which in a sense confirmed that my idea could be a very real possibility. It was all about centering, grounding, and shielding your soul, including cleansing your aura. One of the things it mentioned to cleanse the aura is to imagine a violet flame all around you. Violet as the 'highest' of the colors they said has the ability to transform (or convert) lower energies to higher energies ( to me that means that it could transform negative energies to positive energies).

So there, amazing things can come out of your mouth that you can only guess how real they truly are, and how much fact lies therein. Listen to yourself, learn for yourself, and be amazed at how much you know before you learn you knew!

After all, deep down inside each of us, is the eternal being connected to the rest of the universe, all of it, the 'temporary' and the eternal. All we have to do is learn how to maintain the best connection to that part of our being, and share what we can know with others who could use the help.

Finding Eternal Hope in Mortal Life

The greatest adventure is discovering how we could possibly be an eternal spirit-being, or soul, experiencing a mortal life.

The greatest joy and hope is letting go of so much of our fears and doubts about life, because we accept it will be temporary, and limited, but we are neither.

The most wonderful thing to look forward to while alive, is the day we'll wake up, and think, "Wow, what a neat dream that was!" and then find out we lived that dream here, and when it was over, we awoke, and found something greater, better, and somehow, all that this dream seems to be missing.

In the end, our real world is missing so much. So much is left out, so much is lacking, so much is incomplete. That so much is what we left behind, and we often live throughout life complaining that we didn't want to come here, and didn't want to leave all of that behind. Yes we did, who are we kidding? Ourselves, actually. But oh wait, here's the kicker. Yes we left it all. We went camping, leaving our mansion of wonders and joys beyond compare. We came out here, set camp, in the swamp, during the rainy season, fighting mosquitos and slowly starving because the fish don't bite when it rains. We not only came down here, we volunteered. Still, like they say, this little adventure will leave us with a deeper appreciation of all we left, when we get back. So suck it up, grit your teeth, and bear it out. Fight for your right to stay as long as you can, and endure all you can. After all, whether four years, or forty, or four hundred, as far as we can tell, it will eventually come to an end. Nobody has survived on this side of the 'veil'. Everyone who 'survived' and 'beat death' actually went to the other side, just like we will. They may not have had to suffer during that transformation, and for many of us, we may not have to suffer either. But in the end, they all went to the same place, where we'll go. Of course, some of us will come back, or perhaps go somewhere else, not earth but some place similar, to learn other lessons about how much we are capable of doing, and enduring. In the end though, the story is basically the same. We are prodigal sons, down here in the slums of the city, trying to have a good time and all the time missing our father's house. But in the end, let's not get too caught up in the end of the story. We won't enjoy returning home, until we run completely out of our personal 'inheritance' while away from home. Even then we should try to make the best of a bad situation. Look for work, try to find a job that pays the bills, and lets you eat without having to steal food from the company. After all, what we always can use more of, is different perspectives. Alternative ways to look at every situation. Only when we see them all, are we ready to move on to the next situation. Of course, eventually, when we tire of this game, and those watching over us know we won't learn any more from it, will we be reminded this isn't our home. Although for some of us, me included, I'm here to play this game to the end, and only after I see the clouds spell "game over" will I know it's time to shut everything down, and return to the 'real world'. Of course, I know its a game. That's part of what makes it funner for me, and it gives me hope that no matter what happens, it'll work out all right.

So here's to the Eternal, the Hope of all men, that we are more than mere mortals, but eternal souls having a 'mortal moment'. May we all wake up to realize we certainly put ourselves into the game, and won all the eternal treasures we deserve. Although, I'm sure many of us wish we could win a few more to enjoy here, before it's over!

Transformation

I've been reading a lot lately. Many good books. Many books that I believe are a part of me, just like the rest of the universe. These books are already deep down inside of me, and as I read them, I am only reminding myself of what I am capable of. If that doesn't make sense, then let me apologize. It hardly makes sense to me. But it is going to work.

I'm reading these books so I can let myself accept the truth. The basic truth that everything is made of energy, that this energy is basically eternal, universal, and infinite. That I am made of this energy, and through this energy, I am connected to everything eternal, universal, and infinite.

The next step after accepting this, is beginning to live it, and see it change everything in my life. I have to live like I'm connected to this computer, and the trees outside, and the fire my wife wants me to build when I post this. In the end, I plan to fly like an eagle, soaring through the sky, carried on wings of light, or another word for light, energy. I plan to age like a tree, for five hundred years, then reverse the process and grow young over the next five hundred years. Then I'll be '40', but physically I plan to stay about 30.

I believe that we can all be super-human. I believe we can be eternal humans in an eternal body. I believe the only thing holding us back is ourselves, and thousands of years of telling ourselves either "never" or "not yet". But why would we do that? Or, what are we waiting for?

friends online

Recently, my efforts to share my time online with others has produced a growing group of friends on myspace. People I have actually never met, who still have heard pieces of my mind, and decided to be friends. I don't know how many of them have seen my blog here, which I mention to just about anybody sooner or later, but to all of them I want to say Thank You.

Thank you for reading, thank you for chatting, thank you for giving me hope that the things I do online do impact lives, and can do more good than they may seem to do at first. I hope you all will also remember that, and thank those who help you through anything you go through.

I also want to thank family and friends new and old for their time, energy, and whatever else they have given to me over the years or days, those especially who I face everyday or less than once a month. Thanks to each of you.

Today's thought for eternal hope is this: Life is most enjoyable with people who you can trust and enjoy it with. But you have to believe you can be someone people will trust and enjoy life with and believe they can be too. Not everyone will be trustworthy, or truly enjoyable, but like any diamond among coal, finding even one true and enjoyable person to spend your lifetime with is a part of life you will want to keep forever. In fact, I'm certain that all of my friends and family are worth a Thousand Trillion Dollars each. If only I could give them their worth. But I might have to give them their worth in Golden Fuzion Coins...

Where do you see hope?

The title is a question I think everyone should ask themselves. After all, nobody knows you better than yourself. At least, usually. In the end those who seem to can probably read your aura or something making them technically not any more knowledge-able about you than anyone else who can read or see things you can not. Like how you act, or talk, or write, or sing, or play or fight. Anything you do can hint at who you are, but still, seeing the aura probably is more direct, and probably hints closer to the true you hidden behind all the acting we are taught to do as children.

Back to the question though, where do yo see hope? I see hope when I beat a video game. I see hope when I get a new pinball high score. I see hope in flowers, lights that still come on when I flip the switch at night, glow-in-the-dark stones and LEGOs. I see hope in birds and squirrels, dogs, cats and deer, and other animals as they continue to live their lives often with just a vague notion of the danger of a road, and hardly any good sense to look both ways or stand still and wait for a car to pass. I see hope when I pass by a car on the side of the road with a flat, and another car behind it belonging to the person changing the flat. I see hope when people give money to children raising money for ball games, mission trips, or just their local girl scout group so they can do fun things. I see hope in sunrise, and sunset. I see hope when I look up after dark and see the constellation Orion and his 'belt'. I see hope when I look up at the moon. I see hope in movies with a happy ending, or books with a happy ending. I see hope when I find a job opportunity that I didn't see a week ago, and they accept my application. I see hope when my wife smiles. I see hope when I make a goofy face in the mirror. I see hope when I put on my hawaiian shirt my wife made.

There is more. Hope in little, daily miracles that I can find every day I look. So I ask you, where do you see hope?